When I Die

When I die I hope you find this –

Some things are hard to say face to face.

Some things are hard to say at all,

Even to oneself.

It makes it real.

It makes it too real.

I pretend I’m someone else.

Everything is fine.

I pretend.

The way it should be.

Falling in love in the spring.

Swimming in the summers ocean.

Watching the leaves fall.

Death in winter.